Lately I've been feeling that something weird is going on. Like the world is holding it's breath or something. It is very disturbing.
Not that anything has happened but it just *feels* like something is brewing. I don't like it.
Today at work everyone left 1/2 day early. EVERYONE. It was very strange. Like everyone is tuned in to whatever is going on but no one quite knows what it is. If that makes a bit of sense.
I came home and slept for 4 hours. THAT was strange because I'd slept fine the night before and got plenty of sleep. I kept asking myself if I felt ok - yeah. No fever, no aches (outside of the normal) - I felt fine. I just wanted to sleep. And not in my bed, either. What's up with that, I wonder?
Aside from that bit of strangeness, the dog was acting weird yesterday when I went to visit him. Usually he will bark like mad and run around the house trying to get me to play with him when I come over.
But yesterday I went in and he didn't bark or "scream" or anything. Just a lot of tail wagging and snot blowing. All he wanted was love. Just wanted me to love on him.
Mom wanted to know why he wasn't carrying on. Hell if I know. It was odd. I thought maybe he had been sick or something but she said not.
Altho he hasn't been eating a lot lately. All he wanted to do was sit in my lap or mom's lap. Then he got into his bed in the living room and stayed in there until I was leaving. Very strange. Not like him at all.
And my dad - I swear I don't know where he picks this stuff up. He hears things and doesn't quite associate them correctly. Here's our conversation.
Dad - "Didn't they put an iPod down there where you are?"
Me - "I'm sure there are a lot of iPods where I live. Did you want to get one?"
Dad - "Well, we passed one on the way to XYZ. I thought it was down there by you."
Me (confused)- "You passed an iPod or you want an iPod?" I look at mom for a translation. "What's he talking about?"
Mom - "It's an IHOP. International House of Pancakes. Not an iPod."
Me (cracking up laughing and falling over on the couch) - "He thought an IHOP was an iPod!"
Dad - "I knew it was something like that."
Me (still laughing) - "What's the difference between a Blackberry and a Dingleberry?"
Dad - "I know what a dingleberry is!"
So, those are two new familial words. IHOP is now iPod and vice versa (so when we go out to eat I'll say "let's go to the iPod!"). And instead of calling my Palm Pilot a "Blackberry" I'll just call it a "dingleberry" and be done with it. Since it's all the same anyway, right? ROFL!!!!!!
This week I got my skating music for competition and we've started on the program. It should be fun. I can actually count it now! I'm so proud of myself! Playing the drum has really helped me pick up better timing.
I had every intention of going to practice today but I just couldn't get my draggin' ass outta the bed. So I went and lifted weights at the gym. Then I went to the store.
I've had the worst hunger for apples. I got hooked on those Ida Reds and now if I don't have at least one of them every day it's like withdrawl. WTF? Me - eating apples! Surely a sign the apocalypse is near.
Hey - I'm a big veggie eater but not so much fruits. Especially apples. I never really cared for them - the consistency was not to my liking - too mushy. But these Ida Reds - oooooo! YUM! The taste and consistency are yummy.
Now it's quiet and my feet are warm. Looks like I'm going to be going back to bed. I dunno why I'm so tired. Probably the stupid weather. Cold and dark. It sucketh mightily.
Not sure what I'll be up to tomorrow afternoon. Steve and I are going out with some friends of his tomorrow night. That should be interesting.
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The Rogue Goddess saw shadows dancing at 11:24 PM
A friend of mine had a housewarming party over the weekend so we went down to visit her and her bf. It was very nice. I really like their house. It's perfect for them.
We had a lot of fun talking and socializing. Believe it or not I didn't have anything to drink. I just didn't feel like it. But it was nice.
Today I went to practice and finally realized why my damned hip flexors are so tired. It's from doing figures - specifically the double 3 turns. Damned things! I don't like them anyway and for them to make me hurt - well - the hell with them!
I finally got a "clue" about this dance pattern I have been working on. AH! It's taken me a while to pick it up but now it's pretty neat. I like it. Hopefully I'm doing it right.
All I did at practice tonight was work on my figs - not so much FS until the last 10 minutes. Wednesday I have a lesson. Hopefully my hip flexors will be feeling up to it. I have a feeling we're going to have a program. That's cool.
Got the pix from the last photoshoot. The last one came out really cool. Can't post it 'cause I'm totally nekkid! O_O!!! But it really looks neat. "Classical". I can't hardly believe that's ME. Very odd.
But - a series of the pix finally made me realize why my layback isn't quite right. Seems I only bend at the waist instead of at the shoulders - I don't roll my shoulders back. So that helped.
I tried one on the rink today - a layback. Those damned things make me really dizzy. I'm not quite sure why. No other spin makes me dizzy like a layback does.
A little tired and sore tonight. Been reading several books at a time. Just kinda taking it easy. Still looking for another job. I put some "feelers" out to another department. We'll see how that turns out.
I'd like to leave but I don't want to get out of the fryin pan and into the fire.
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The Rogue Goddess saw shadows dancing at 7:57 PM
Practice last night. Ow! Hip flexors tired today. Again.
And, like a bad girl, I forgot to comment on Nationals. Yes, I think Michelle Kwan should be able to "bump" onto the Olympic team. She's paid her dues. If she can skate let her. The young ones have plenty of time ahead of them to mature as skaters (besides, it's much better for them physically).
I am hopeful that Jeff will have another one of his "parties" for the Olympics so we drunken skaters can sit around and trash talk everyone else. LOL! Hey, we live for that shit! At least us old codgery ones do! *cackle*
Today I'm listening to music trying to find some good belly dance stuff to skate to. Now I have on George Abdo and his Flames of Araby. You gotta love it!
Yesterday that rink was freezing. I could feel my hip flexors just like tightening up as soon as I stepped out onto the ice. It took about 20 minutes to get them warmed up. Ugh. They just feel "tired" today - not hurting so much. But I'm sure that will all change tomorrow. Usually two days after I skate is when I'm hating life from the waist down.
We went over all my elements at practice that I will be testing and competing. And the stuff I LIKE to do but isn't required. The end of my lesson was my pro asking, "can you do this?" and me saying, "lemme try" then busting my ass as I attempted to show off. lol!
Surprisingly I haven't totally lost all of my "tricks". Took me a while to get my split jump back, tho. That's not a required move so I haven't really worked on it consistently. Been too busy lately working on "required" elements for my tests to really just goof off.
Hey - there's a lot to be said for goofing off. I learned a LOT of stuff that way - watching other people (mostly kids) and trying what I saw. And it's fun, too. Until you bust your ass a couple of good times. Then not so much!
But it's the "goof off" stuff and the "inbetween" stuff that can really make a program. If someone has strong elements but nothing else they usually don't score so high (Surya Bonalie anyone?).
I can say that because I'm technically a strong skater but I sure don't look "pretty" doing it. None of that "fru-fru" stuff for me. Sometimes - ok most of the time - I struggle with trying to "look good" on the ice doing the "inbetween" stuff. What can I say? I'd make a helluva show skater. lol!
That's pretty much why I love compulsories. They are REQUIRED elements - no music, no fru-fru stuff. Just you out there on half the ice going head to head with another skater on technical ability alone. None of that nonsense. Just trash talking smack down skating! lol!
Today I see the chiropractor. Probably a good thing. Oh, and my yurt is almost paid off. I should have it paid off and home before my birthday. Oooooo - methinks me might have to have a birthday party in my yurt! Woooooo!
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The Rogue Goddess saw shadows dancing at 9:48 AM
I had some really really strange dreams last night. Very odd.
The first one was a bit of a nightmare. I dreamed I went to Pennsic and forgot all the rum! GAH! The horror! I was so upset. Nevermind that there is a Beer 4 Less about ten miles away. Just the THOUGHT of going to Pennsic without rum was, well, quite terrifying. And disheartening.
Later I dreamed that me and two other people (I knew them in the dream but I can't remember who they were now - a guy and a girl) were kidnapped and being held hostage in some sort of mechanical garage. Meaning a garage where cars are repaired. I don't know. It was a dream. Do they ever make a bit of sense?
The Master Batcher was there - why I don't know. I can't figure out if he was trying to help us, if he was one of us or if he was a kidnapper. Then my dad shows up and wants to rescue us.
I was like "uh, no." My dad is like OLD, ok? He's had a triple bypass. He doesn't need to be fighting off kidnappers. So he and I got into an argument about why he shouldn't be trying to rescue us.
We ended up coming to some sort of agreement that we would attack the kidnappers together so the others could escape. It was very odd. All we had were two knives. We burst into the garage part from the office part where we were being held and there was a bunch of yelling and knives flying and people running. The Master Batcher ended up getting stabbed in the side but he was ok.
I don't know what happened to me or my dad or anyone else. I just remember Brent getting stabbed and yelling that he was ok. Very bizarre.
So I called him this morning. He says, "oh, did you get my email?" Nope, no email. Just a weird ass dream. Seems he did need to talk to me, tho. Sorry, dude. I told you - stop broadcasting on my frequency and I'll stop picking up the signal.
About work. Well, if I had a dollar for everytime this week someone asked me when I'm going to have this monster completed I'd be able to say "fuck off" and retire. It's just amazing.
Hey - YOU were the one who wouldn't get off your butt and do your part to speed up the process. Now you want to come bitch at ME? I don't think so.
Just another hair pulling day in the salt mines. Ugh.
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The Rogue Goddess saw shadows dancing at 3:07 PM
Mr. Lickalicious is 29 today. I remember when I was 29. Vaguely. I believe I was intoxicated most of that year. And the one before that. Take a cue from me, licky baby and enjoy your youth! Everyone should have a wild and misspent youth!
I've been very busy this week - working late and skating. I'm quite tired today. I actually had to go run an experiment on the large equipment and the water system was down. I had to haul 6 cases of water by hand to do my thing. Ugh. That's just added physical labor - as if the actual making weren't physical enough. It is. Trust me.
My butt was dragging all day. I guess this week has caught up with me. So I just took my time. I got it all done. Made a big old mess - it was ugly. But that was the point. To PROVE to the plant that it was ugly and they'd be better off doing what engineering TOLD them to do in the first place.
I'm still mystified why this is such a big deal to them. No one seems to be able to give me a satisfactory answer, either. They just keep saying "we won't do it." I think they'll have to change their tune once some big wheel gets wind of their crap. But hey. It's not my problem. I just needed to make a mess to PROVE it was a mess.
Got my skating competition/test applications. Need to fill them out and send them in. Like a bad girl I didn't watch the Ladies short program last night. And it's my favorite. *sad face* I went to bed about 8:30pm. I was tired, I'm telling ya! I'll watch the long tomorrow.
Don't have my new pix yet so I don't know how they turned out. It should be interesting. Here's a snip of the convo between me and the photog:
Him - "Sit here. Like this. Now look at me."
Me - after seeing how he wanted me to sit - Hand in hair with my elbow resting on my knee - "do you want my disgusted at work look?" That's sure what it looked like to me. The pose I do right about the time I'm fixing to pull my hair out.
Him - laughing - "no, this isn't supposed to be 'disgusted at work'. This is supposed to be provocative."
Me - "oh. I dunno if I have another look other than disgusted at work!"
I guess it was ok. He didn't tell me to stop. Altho he DOES tell me to stop laughing at times. I can't help it. I feel kinda stupid and get the giggles. It usually doesn't last long.
Wednesday I had practice and my pro gave me all my forms. I think I'm going to test my FS up to my MIF level and compete in several different things.
She already has music but I'm going to need some other music to compete. It should be pretty easy to cut now that everything is on CD.
Thursday I ended up working late and going to the gym. I wanted to go to the store but I was tired and my hip flexors were starting to feel "tired" again. It's a very weird feeling. So I came home and went to bed early.
Tonight I just came home and took a nap. Tomorrow I need to clean this wreck of a place up. I haven't done anything all week so it's pretty messy. And I need to take the Christmas stuff down, too.
Sad all I want to do is nap. And read. Been reading before bed again. It's so nice not to have someone hovering over me demanding that I write. I can actually READ and ENJOY it!
Yes, I miss Hateful but I'm also glad I can do "my" things again. Maybe I'll take this opportunity of a long weekend to do some more cleaning out of the junk.
Who am I kidding? I'm going to sit here and read. Tomorrow I have to take my books back to the lib and go to the store. That means I'll get more books and lay around reading. I'm so sad.
Hey - at least I can put the laundry in while I'm reading!
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The Rogue Goddess saw shadows dancing at 10:16 PM
It's been a while since I've posted. Had a bit of a busy weekend. Went home on Sunday and gave The Creature a bath. My brother had his boxer there. She's like 50lbs and thinks she's a lap dog. Ugh.
She kept getting in my lap and mashing me. And when I tried to chase Ug she ran over me. Dang. I'm not used to getting abused by the dog. I'm used to dishing it out! LOL!
Ug was none too pleased that she planted herself in my lap. Apparently, he thinks my lap belongs to HIM when he has a mind to sit in it. HA!
So The Creature is clean now and dad is happy.
Today I went for my pix again. He's really upgraded his setup with new lighting and new backdrops. I was impressed. He said he's been able to quit his day job and just do photos which is what he wanted so that's cool.
My back is a little sore from all the twisting. And I went to practice yesterday at lunch. I needed it. It was ok. My first attempt at figures since I got my skates sharpened.
It took me a while to find my camel again but my leg height is getting rather nice. The muscle is coming back and I can raise it a lot higher than before.
I had a hard time keeping my feet under me in some of the figs. I'll have to work on those some more this week. I also need to get that test form turned in before I forget (or the deadline passes).
The Christmas stuff is still up and I really don't have the motivation to take it down yet. Just been tired these last few days. Probably the weather. It's cold and dark so all I really wanna do is sleep. It happens.
I finally got that damned tire fixed and put on the car. Dad seemed amazed that I actually could change the tire. I'm like "uh, remember you showed me how?" WTF? I guess he thought it went in one ear and out the other but I've changed PLENTY of tires thus far.
There is some nice plaid fabric laying on my floor - tempting me to turn it into a dress. Maybe sometime soon I will do this. Or maybe I will continue to threaten it.
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The Rogue Goddess saw shadows dancing at 9:00 PM
Not going to practice over the holidays. Now my hip flexors are killing me and it's hard to walk. They just feel so tired. I think maybe today I'll skip practice and the gym to let the muscles rest a little bit. I needs it.
When I skate regularly I tend to forget just how many muscles you really use doing that. Muscles I had forgotten I even HAD starting griping.
It's a good thing - yet still odd. After I tried my first axel I was like "whoa! I forgot how you have to scrunch your butt up when you do that!" Like a revelation. I guess you get so used to it you don't even realize you're doing it.
Motivation not to skip weeks. Hey, I don't care what you do at the gym it's nothing like skating. Why I don't know. It's just not. It helps but it's not the same thing.
What I'm listening to - "Smokey and the Bandit". Yeah. It was in my music folder at home and I just transferred all of that to the mp3 player. I had a LOT more music stored than I realized.
Anyway - hearing that song brings back a lot of memories. Like when one couldn't get Coors beer east of the Mississippi. Yes, young whippersnappers, this is true not just an urban legend. As a matter of fact, that is what the entire movie was about - getting Coors to Atlanta. Amazing.
Today everyone is bitching about this stupid thing I'm trying to finish - when is it going to be done? When can I have it? Uh, yeah. Well, seeing as how I've been waiting since OCTOBER to get it you're just gonna have to WAIT until I'm done.
Get this - one of the dudes I've been swapping CD's with was actually surprised to hear that you can get CD's and DVD's at the public library. Yes, my naive one, the library has LOTS of things besides paper books! There's CDs, DVDs, books on tape, books on CD, internet service, newspapers from all over the world, magazines - it's a wealth of information!
I was so proud of him when he came in the next day with CD's from the library. Yay! I've turned another one to the "dark side" of knowledge. Oh, shit! I forgot to warn him that The Shrub is probably keeping an eye on what he checks out. Oh, well. He's probably a rethuglican anyway. LOL!
Dad called me yesterday and told me I need to give the dog a bath. WTF? Mom doesn't like me to give him baths in the winter because she's afraid it's too cold and he'll get sick. So I told him I'd come up this weekend and give that mutt a bath. And trim his grinch feet up.
I had a hot pretzel this morning and now I feel bloated. Ugh. I had planned on going to skate a lunch so I wanted to eat something early. As the day has worn on the pain in my hips has increased. I even took some tylenol but that isn't helping a whole lot. So I'm not going to skate. But I hate this bloated feeling. Ugh. Maybe I'm just constipated. LOL!
I haven't finished Mike's tunic, either. I've just been not doing much after getting home from the gym except goofing around with my mp3 player (which I still haven't managed to figure out yet). Ah, well. He shouldn't need it until March or April anyway. And I'll have it done by then for sure.
My old officemate transferred to a new job and moved out yesterday. I am sad. Who am I going to get to help me with the math and physics stuff? :-( So bogus. He could explain things to me in a way I understood. Now I'm clueless as well as ChemEless. I guess I'll have to find another victim. AH! My neighbor just transferred in so I'll ask HIM!
Oh, I finally figured out why we don't have street musicians downtown playing Christmas songs over the holidays - it's too frigging COLD! I had thought about playing my violin - the hell with that! My poor fingers would have FROZEN to the thing. DUH. So that lil' mystery is solved.
Not much else going on here. It's gotten colder and trying to snow. Ugh. Means I'm going to have to set up shop in the sauna again. I rather wish I had one of those at home. I could really get used to that temp.
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The Rogue Goddess saw shadows dancing at 11:53 AM
All Fucktards Return to Work Day. Traffic this morning was TERRIBLE. Idiots slamming on their breaks and cutting across two lines of traffic because they missed their exit (probably talking on a damned cell phone.) Stupid trucks everywhere clogging up traffic by driving 50mph in the high speed lane. GAH!
You stupid fuckers! It was sooooooo nice when you were all GONE! No idiots on the road. No stupid trucks clogging up the exit ramps. Fuck. Now you've all returned like a plague of locusts. Fuckers. BAH!
And with them the "OMG I'm gonna DIE" crowd. Look. I told you BEFORE Christmas to tell me what you wanted and you couldn't make up your mind. Now, all of a sudden you want it TODAY. THIS MINUTE. WTF? Did you miss that part where I said "no"? Yeah, well, you'll get over it.
Get this - today the sea hag thinks she's going to roll in here and start demanding my presence in meetings after 4:30pm. Hey, bitch - I'm in here at the crack of dawn for a REASON. I SKATE on Wednesdays and need to leave by 4:30 to make it to the rink on time. Today is especially bad - I have to leave even EARLIER because my skates are being held hostage and I must randsom them.
If you want to have a fucking meeting with me I suggest you make it on Tuesday or Thursday. Or, better yet, in the morning. But since you're lazy ass doesn't show up here until 9am I guess that's not going to happen. Who's fault is THAT?
Don't you love it? Wasn't I just so calm and peaceable over the holidays? I think so. I don't think I was nearly as irritated and swearing as now. You gotta love busting hump for "the man". GAH!
Today I get this hysterical email from marketing wanting to know what we are going to do about X because they want Y. I'm like "they are totally independent of each other. What happens to X won't happen to Y because they are two different chemicals." This seemed to confuse them.
OK - let me put it to you in language you can understand. Apple - orange. Get it? Fucking idiots. Where the hell do they find these morons? They remind me of those "best of the best of the best" in Men in Black when Will Smith goes in to take the MIB test.
A bunch of conformists who can't friggin THINK for themselves. GAH! Someone has to TELL them what to think, what to do and how to do it. Douchebags.
Hey - at least it's not freezing out.
OK - I gotta get ready to go. I have to "rescue" my skates and hit practice. I've been a bad bad girl and not gone since before the holiday. :-(
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The Rogue Goddess saw shadows dancing at 3:52 PM
I can't believe it's 2006. WTF? I never thought I'd be this old. Shit! It's kinda scary actually.
Hopefully everyone is sitting on the sofa nursing their hangovers and watching some football. Me? Ah, I was an old party pooper last night. I stayed home and watched a Law & Order marathon. I'm sad, I know. lol!
But hey, don't cry for me. I'll get my partying in over the summer. As soon as camping season starts, the Unholy Grail will "magically" appear with it's bottomless supply of rum and all will be right with the world.
And I was a bit tired. Steve and I sort of celebrated a day early since he was the one being a "social butterfly" last night. THAT is a switch. o_O
Today I slept in then went to the gym like a good girl. Then to the store. I had to buy humidifier filters and furnace filters and Diet Coke.
Also picked up "Bullitt" with Steve McQueen. I was just thinking about going to the video store for it and, lo, there it was in the "bargain bin". So I'll probably watch that tonight.
I had planned on actually cleaning this place up a bit but now I'm worn out. Oh, well. I'll probably read a bit, watch some of this football game and take a nap. Oh, the torture! lol!
I need to go home, too, and beat that dog. Mom's movie finally came in so I can drop it off.
Last night I had an odd dream. I dreamed I was playing a lot of drums. But I don't know HOW to play a lot of drums so I just played ONE drum. And that was cool. Everyone was happy with the one drum. (I was making nothing but noise with lots of drums)
What is even odder is that I dream in music sometimes. But I can't write it down because I don't equate notes with sounds. It's hard to explain. If I HEAR something I can pick up the rhythm but how the hell does one write that down?
I'm still a bit hungry. That fruit just isn't cutting it. I need some BREAD. Yeah, baby! My favorite thing in the world! BREAD! Yum!
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The Rogue Goddess saw shadows dancing at 4:48 PM
